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Jan. 31st, 2009

12:11 am - The Horrors Of Addiction

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I've known Brian for awhile. Then I got to know his girlfriend Krystal. Two great, fun, people. Both recovering addicts.
They got pregnant. Brian replapsed. He'd stay clean for bit and use again. Krystal gave birth to a beautiful baby boy a month or so ago. Brian continued to bounce in and out of the rooms.
Krystal finally had enough and said go to rehab or go. He went to detox and then to a 6 month treatment facility. He left treatment early a few days ago.
Today I got the call that everyone dreads. Brian is dead.
As it turns out, he called Krystal today and told her loves her and he's so sorry.
After he got off the phone with her, he slit his own throat.
I just want to scream at him how the fuck could just give up like that? What about your fucking son??
What about the woman who loves and who has stood by you?? Your friends? Your family?
Yet on the other hand, I all too well know the horrors of this disease. As you all do as well.....
The disease tells us to just give up. Some of us keep up the fight to keep the disease arrested. Others, like Brian, can't see past the despair.
Tonight, please say a prayer for my friends. Say a prayer, too, for the sick and suffering addicts out there. The one's who don't know they have choice and the one's who forget the have a choice.


Date:February 1st, 2009 02:29 am (UTC)
My prayers and heart go out to Krystal and you. Word can not convey what I wish to say.
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Date:February 1st, 2009 05:24 pm (UTC)
I understand that. I have no words. I just want to make Krystal feel better. I'm not used to this kind of powerlessness. I am using this experience, though, to grow in my faith and relationship with my higher power.
Thank you so much for your prayers. It means a lot to me and I know Kyrstal would say the the same thing. We all just have to keep fighting.
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Date:February 8th, 2009 01:06 am (UTC)
Thank you
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