My message of recovery - grateful recovering addicts
Aug. 25th, 2009
10:46 am - My message of recovery
I am a greatful recovering addict named Jupiter. I just wanted to introduce myself.
By thre grace of my Goddess on the 7th of next month I will have 11months which is the longest amount of continous clean time I have been able to have in the last 27 years I had used.
What is different about this time is that I am going to meetings and working a program of recovery. What I wish to convey is that this does work.
Little by little each day, I am losing the compulsion to use, and replacing it with a desire to live, and have found a life worth living.
It hasn't been all sunshine and roses. The last 10 and a half months have been full of hell and suffering, but the hell and suffering I have been through inside of the meetings hasn't been near as painful as it would have been outside.
I have finally discovered why people say to get involved and do service work, and reach out to others as well as form relationships outside of the rooms because if I hadn't, when the shit hit the fan, I definitely would have relapsed several times had I not had formed the tight knit support group that I have.
I cannot stress enough how vital that has been for my recovery. What works for me however, may not work for others, but I'm going to venture a guess and say if you're struggling that it just might.
I have found hope in NA that I never had, or knew existed. I'm no longer a lost soul wandering the streets looking for my next fix, and to tell you the truth, I don't even miss the hustle of the lifestyle much anymore, or the chaos that went with it.
The serenity I have and am finding in each moment is something I will not give up so easily again. This is a fight; one worthwhile, because today I have things I never dreamt I could have in a million years-A beautiful life, a beautiful family, and a new home I am moving into this week.
I've gone from being homeless, losing everything and having an unmanageable life, and being chaotic to serene, and getting my own house, and I'm even starting to look for employment-I've been on Social Security for two years because I've been unemployable, and next year I am returning to school.
I came in not believing in anything or anyone. Not even myself.
You see, in recovery, when you work a program , you can get things back, and there is hope-So don't ever give up-And don't use-No matter what!